What my friends say: I’m having a fantastic time with this person :)
What my BPD hears: You’re not good enough, you’re worthless and replaceable, I don’t need you, I don’t care about you, I love this person way more than I could ever love you, you need to try harder to please me, you’re boring, I deserve better :)
I hate the fact that my bpd constantly makes me feel like no one cares about me or likes me and it’s hard to explain to people that I can’t tell which feelings are mine and which are my disorder and I have no idea what gender or sexuality I should go by and I can never tell which parts of me are real and which parts of me are not and it all makes me wanna cry and scream and say goodbye to everyone and everything
What my friends say: I’m having a fantastic time with this person :)
What my BPD hears: You’re not good enough, you’re worthless and replaceable, I don’t need you, I don’t care about you, I love this person way more than I could ever love you, you need to try harder to please me, you’re boring, I deserve better :)
I hate the fact that my bpd constantly makes me feel like no one cares about me or likes me and it’s hard to explain to people that I can’t tell which feelings are mine and which are my disorder and I have no idea what gender or sexuality I should go by and I can never tell which parts of me are real and which parts of me are not and it all makes me wanna cry and scream and say goodbye to everyone and everything